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In this exercise, we invert the gendered rule of sex before love:
Men do not sleep with women they are interested in on the first date.
Now, we apply this to ME (you).
If I sleep with a man on the first date, it must mean I am (you are) emotionally ready to disqualify him permanently. To see it through is to certify with a seal that I do not expect to see him again, and I’ll be fine if I don’t. In fact, I must expect to never see any man that I sleep with again if we do so before any binding commitment is made. I ate him up and got what I wanted; that’s a full hunt completed.
They took what they could, and so did I.
If they do not want more, neither shall I ask nor desire.
Don’t turn around, don’t blink twice.
This does not mean I view men as “prey”. I’m not delusional (I think, haha). I respect them as human beings like myself. We are equals; coercion is never involved (or the police will join the party).
But I will reciprocate how they treat me. Some men (not all) act like this is a game and women are prey to be devoured. There may be no coercion, but there is always persuasion and manipulation in human relations. They think that if they go through the motions and “play the game right”, women will willingly fall into their arms — and they don’t even have to commit.
But there are no free lunches in this world.
They think they’re the hunters; they don’t realise I own the hunting ground.
And on these grounds, babygirls — contrary to my tagline — love is not a game.
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