do you remember the crystal jar?
i dropped it and it shattered
i ran my fingertip along a shard, wondering if it could make me bleed
just like you did, just like i did
even if we cut – and bleed – differently
Year: 2024
letter to a young girl
I recently began tutoring a young girl in secondary school. She’s almost half my age – I remember her eyes widening in innocent wonder when I shared how old I was.
When I watch her working diligently on her math equations in her little universe, I find myself hoping she will be protected from the vicissitudes of life. I want to tell her:
There’s so much out there for you… there’ll be so much joy and so much learning. And what seems so insurmountable now might only be a distant glimmer in the galaxy of your future.
You’ll do just fine as long as you try your best.
I believe in you.
To you and me both.
mine
but let me have you, let me break you
excerpts, #4
i should know the world is my oyster… and here i am, hoping i’ll choke on a pearl
2024’s ins and outs
ins
- “if it’s not a hard yes, it’s a no”
- biting the bullet and doing it
- the fancy version of manifestation, the WOOP method
- a master’s degree
- jazz
- divine babygirl energy
- pilates & dance
- (by the grace of god) a regulated sleep cycle
- accountability buddies / operant conditioning
- marie kondo-esque purge cycles
outs
- sarcastic people
- theses
- existential dread (Nietzsche exempted)
- assault
- revenge bedtime procrastination (e.g. this post)
- social clocks
- cowardice
the duality of (wo)man, #2
i’m unsure which terrifies me more:
the duality of man, or
how little a woman is worth
baby g’s diary 